Joy Trail Raven Raley

Dear Diary:

I’ve been here a month now so I guess I’d better catch up on some of the
things that have been happening. OH! I haven’t met my TRUE LOVE or anything
like that, but I sure have been having fun.
In spite of what the women at work said, I did go out with one guy from
work. Well, I ’sort of’ went out with him. Wait. You’ll see as I explain
what happened. You see, after I had been there a couple of days he called me
in to take a letter. I hadn’t seen him before and when I did, well I just
about flipped. I honestly wondered why on earth he wasn’t a movie star. I’d
met attractive men before, but he was something else. Everything about him
just fit together perfectly. (more…)

Last week, I stumbled on something that made me completely
change the way I thought about my girlfriend. I decided to
drop by Nancy’s house last Thursday night at about 10 P.M. She
wasn’t expecting me, but I would often stop by her house after
work. I get off at around nine thirty, and Nancy only lives
about 20 minutes from the store where I work.
When I got to Nancy’s house, I noticed her friend Judy’s
car parked outside. This didn’t seem out of the ordinary at
all, since Judy and Nancy have been the best of friends since
they graduated high school a few years ago. As I approached
the house, I heard loud music coming from one of the bedrooms
in the back. I could tell her parents weren’t home, because
their car wasn’t parked in the driveway, so I went around to
the back. When I got to Nancy’s window, I peered in through a
small space between the carelessly closed curtains. When I
looked in, I couldn’t believe my eyes! (more…)

She turned in her bed and burrowed among the pillows … the sun was
peeping in through the window and that was her alarum clock this season.
But a few moments wouldn’t matter. Squirmed and cuddled against a satiny
pillow.

It had been a nice party yesterday. They had talked about Sartre and CAD
programs and sex and war and got a little high. It was a wonderful thing
to have good friends. Not really friends actually, but colleagues and
acquaintances. And then that icecream was a great way to finish off. No
calories. None. Not one! Atleast that is what the label said, though
Andrew pickering claimed that it was just dishonest advertising. (more…)

It was Friday afternoon and I was glad I didn’t have a date. I’d
been asked but nothing seemed right about any of them. I just
wanted to be alone.

Seattle was rainy when I boarded the United flight to Los
Angeles.

First class always appeals to me. Not just in flights but
everything else too. I guess I just feel more important when I
spend more money on me. Clothes, car, my hair, having my nails
done, a facial, presents for friends, restaurants and flying in
first class. Why was I thinking of all these things? My mind was
wandering. (more…)

Ellen came over to my table, setting down her coffee, cigarettes, and a
couple of left-over pastries. For some reason I had expected her face to
be different, soft in contrast to her harsh persona, but it also looked
rebellious. She offered me one of the pastries and we chatted together as
we ate; for some strange reason she attracted me greatly, she was gutsy and
brash but at the same time coquettishly feminine. Grandi had finished up
in the back and from habit I knew it was time to take off. The crisp air
was a sharp contrast to that of the cafe as Ellen and I walked out to the
now deserted sidewalk.

When I found out that she lived in the old district about a mile East I
offered to give her a ride home, realizing that she probably wouldn’t take
me up on it as I gestured towards my motorcycle, but she accepted anyway.
I rocked the bike off its footpeg and started it up, listening to the motor
complain after sitting for ten hours in the sun. Ellen got on and grabbed
me around the waist with her left hand, holding her cigarette out of the
wind the right and pressing up against my back as we raced away. The city
streets were devoid of anything at this hour, only cardboard boxes and
empty cups blowing around in strange little whirlpools of wind and empty
buses wandering through their routes.

The air was hot and muggy, and even though the sun had begun to set a while
back the passing cars and concrete sidewalk kept everything unbearable.
Even the customers sitting and eating dinner under the Cinzano umbrellas
were continually mopping up sweat with little square cocktail napkins. The
cold air from the kitchen was my only salvation and I would linger in the
oasis until I could sense the customers beginning to question my
whereabouts, appearing for a cursory refilling of glasses only to retreat
again. The streetlights all clicked on at once with a buzzing sound,
casting their amber-white light across the tables and cigarette smoke.

As the night progressed the high school kids took their Camaros and
Mustangs and headed off to the movies or the late-night softball games as
the neighborhood slowly regained its composure. Older couples strolled the
area, stopping off at one cafe or another and ordering their coffee,
decaffinated, with half and half. The two that always took the table
nearest the street wearily got up and ambled off towards their apartment,
leaving the habitual full ashtray covering a healthy tip. The peacefulness
was briefly interrupted as an ambulance blew by full-tilt, heading off into
the distance sirens wailing.

The air was hot and muggy, and even though the sun had begun to set a while
back the passing cars and concrete sidewalk kept everything unbearable.
Even the customers sitting and eating dinner under the Cinzano umbrellas
were continually mopping up sweat with little square cocktail napkins. The
cold air from the kitchen was my only salvation and I would linger in the
oasis until I could sense the customers beginning to question my
whereabouts, appearing for a cursory refilling of glasses only to retreat
again. The streetlights all clicked on at once with a buzzing sound,
casting their amber-white light across the tables and cigarette smoke.

As the night progressed the high school kids took their Camaros and
Mustangs and headed off to the movies or the late-night softball games as
the neighborhood slowly regained its composure. Older couples strolled the
area, stopping off at one cafe or another and ordering their coffee,
decaffinated, with half and half. The two that always took the table
nearest the street wearily got up and ambled off towards their apartment,
leaving the habitual full ashtray covering a healthy tip. The peacefulness
was briefly interrupted as an ambulance blew by full-tilt, heading off into
the distance sirens wailing.

hey hey so this whole week has been soo nuts!lol i dont know but it feels like this week has been the busiest week of my life!lol just alot of stuff going on and im getting ready to leave for this movie il be in which im really nervous but im excited too! i really hope that it helps me and my future:) hehe also just hope its fun to do! hehe i hope to be working with fun and cool people and well if u didnt know i will be gone for a few weeks but il have my laptop on me to let you all know whats been up and going on! but today i went to the mall for once and just had a blast shopping! hehe but now im really tired and going to jus lay around the rest of the night:) hehe but yeah im going to be on my emails so write me one if you would like;) kisses

hey hey so today is soo nice out and i just got back from laying out with a few friends. so now im here and i just got on to make sure that my cam is working properly lol. and it is:) hehe so im going to lay around while i wait for the time to go by. but one thing on my way home i picked up some food and wow am i tired! i ate too much too fast:( i hate when that happens! but anyways after my cam show i have to go meet my nail lady and get my nails and toes done. hehe after i get my pedicure im going to do a foot fetish video. i have had some requests:) so yeah i am thinking about doing a grill out too, not sure though gotta call up some friends and see if they can make it out:) its tuesday, alot of them are at work or busy. but anyways ill talk to you all soon, see ya at my cam show:) kisses

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